Today (15th October) is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness day. Its a time to remember all those Angels born sleeping, or never made it to their mothers arms, or did so but never made it out of hospital or worse still made it all the way home only to pass away at a later stage. Grief like this hits everyone. You don't have to be an Angel parent to participate. Baby loss is such a taboo issue with not many speaking of it, yet it happens to so many people. At 7 pm tonight all over the world people will be lighting a candle creating a wave of light for 1 hour to remember the Angels by. I'll be lighting mine in remembrance of my lil baby i lost in April 2011 JJ. Will you light one too??
The road of IVF So 2017 brought us our first round of ivf.
It's a surreal experience to say the least.Such a roller coaster of emotions, one minute your up and then next your sat there crying at an advert because the girl on it made cupcakes to say sorry! It's a process that challenge your fears, opens your eyes and makes you see things in a whole different perspective. We started with our initial meeting where we spent an hour signing all our paperwork. This was basically to give permission on what would happen with our eggs that didn't quite become good enough, permission to freeze some if any were viable. To even transfer and etc, it all had to be signed for.
Also to use the embryos should my husband die. This includes counselling.So with that we had bloods and a scan done too, then it was just a case of waiting for 1st day of cycle to begin. Drugs were delivered.
My big white box of little miracles.Cycle day one came....another scan and an injection teach.
It took a deep b…
So 3rd March brought us a day where we thought it would be our step forward, we would have all the answers, we would know which way we were heading. I suppose in a sense we do but first we have a huge decision to make........
or at least i do!
We started the morning by chatting to each other on the way to the hospital, what did we expect to be said?
In all fairness we both agreed that we thought they would say, nothing more we can do and IVF would be our only option. We were ready for that answer and excepting of it also.
However that wasn't the case.
We can do Ivf, that's not a problem. My fallopian tubes are swollen and twisted putting me at higher risk of ectopic pregnancy. I do have a slight chance of conceiving naturally, even though this hasn't happened in the 5 years since our miscarriage.
If we went for the ivf although the egg will be implanted into my uterus the egg could 'migrate' into my fallopian tube and cause an ectopic pregnancy. Or fluid could buil…