It's How Life Is

For the people that kind of know me they should know for me to do stress free....is soooo easy. Well it is until babies enter the equation . As you can tell from many of my posts i have tried near enough EVERTHING . Yeah OK there are a few other things i want to check/try too. Think I'm crazy yet?? Well with the cervical mucus and cervix checking...oh check out www.mybeautifulcervic.com anyone that wants to do bbt and cm checking, very graphic but amazing non the less. Then theres the ovulation tests, sperm meets egg plan, legs in the air after sex, oh boy that can be funny! To taking certain medicines ie folic acid, b6 etc. Then there is the 'new' thing to have come about which is Paradox capsules which is different blends of fish oils. These apparently make your eggs 'more suitable', also Soy iso which if I'm right brings ovulation forward for those ladies (like myself) that have irregular cycles. OK so now you know just how nutty i am! I try...

It seems to be one of those days where i have the good old 'writers block'. Well to a certain degree i do. I have many things on my mind that i want to write about and i can write it all and then read it and I'm like hmmm...nah and scrap it. Its been a pretty rough weekend tbh. I attended what seems to be my second home on Sunday for more routine blood tests after my erpc on the 13th may, only to have to return later that night with sever stomach pains. Labour pains!!! bah they didn't have a notch on this. I was paralysed with the pain it was that bad. After sitting in A&E for 5 hours, a few more vales of blood taken i was sent home with Dihydrocodeine and Diclofenac. Felt sorry for my Dh as he had to be at work at 6 am that morning, we got in at 3.45! Sending my now drowsy son to bed i make a coffee and sat on the sofa wide awake. Typical. We spoke of what had happened in a&e, the wait times, the way they sit you in one room to wait and then move you onto the n...

Well all good news , or so I think so. Went for my second scan today and all is perfectly clear. There are NO retained pregnancy products there. Which is such a relief really. My hcg levels arnt dropping as fast as they would like but are dropping so that's good. Just have to repeat the bloods again in a few days to double check. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Today has been a mad rush if I'm honest. I don't feel like I have stopped. From paying the bills to shopping, to having to drink a pint of water to the scans . To been stabbed with a needle once again, I really feel like a pin cushion, to picking my son up from his 'adoptive' grandfathers, to visiting friends but constantly checking phone for news on blood results to coming home....breath....to feeding kittens, cleaning up, cooking tea and finally relaxing with a glass of wine whilst checking my mails and typing this blog, not to mention a few games of free bingo on che...

So i had a bright idea 7 days ago, I decided the time had come to stop smoking. I had been smoking since i was 12/13 and at 25 i figured that i really didn't like the taste or the smell of it and to be quiet honest i didn't know why, i guess it was just a habit. So 1pm I'm sat in the bath chatting to my husband and suddenly i blurt out, I'm stopping smoking. A short discussion later, we have decided that we have barred smoking from the house to help me in my quest. I'm currently on the 8 Th day of not smoking, no patches, no gum, no inhaler thingy. Just a pen a few sweets and a whole load of will power. The kids are loving the fact that i have so much more energy even after such a short time of stopping. I'm loving the fact of i no longer smell like an ashtray and i seem to have this glow instead of a dull look. First week is suppose to be easy. I chose the wrong time to do it i think, 2 weeks of kids 24/7. Arguing as boys do, play fighting turning t...