It's How Life Is

This week has been a long week even if i do say so myself. Monday i was in hospital after having a Laparoscopy a Hysteroscopy and a dye. So feeling a little sore, bruised and down. This has come after so far 5 years of not been able to conceive. Umpteen tests, medication, seamen analysis, scans, poking, prodding, miss given information and plenty of circles been run around! When we initially went to see the fertility consultant he said nothing wrong and was just classed as secondary infertility, nothing more they can do all we can do is continue to try and go for ivf as that may be the best option. So that's what we decided to do . We went abroad last year in august to Menorca a week away with the boys, sea, sun sand and bliss! It was a challenge to save as its something we are really not good at, but by may we had paid off the holiday etc and all spends were sorted and new clothes. This meant we would be able to save the  £4000 (ish) that we would need for IVF .  So w...

It's Monday! I woke at 5am to get Dh up for work....one of the nice things i like to do and also the fact he is such a heavy sleeper i don't think even a nuclear bomb would wake him up, i have tried everything trust me. I remember a good friend bought us an alarm clock that was as loud as a grenade...even shaped like it come to think of it! you can check it out here . SO then luckily for me i was able to go back to sleep. Woken an hour later (7am) by my fertility monitor wanting my daily temp..drift off with the stick in my mouth. BEEPPPPP. Remove stick and drift off. 8am..Kian come in requesting permission to watch tv downstairs. Sorry for his behaviour last night...A total different blog..dont get me started! Crash..screams...banging....time to get up i think. So. Im grumpy, have tummy ache which has set up home the past few days! I've been peeing on a stick for the past 3 weeks and NO OVULATION!!!!!! Tcc is such hard work. So is it lack of sleep (i think i had plenty).....

Mother Nature's Cry It took me a long while To better the way you live. Since you have turned hostile, I've got no more to give. My land is filled with waste My children are displaced. They live in utter fear, Watching friends disappear. You treat me like a joke: Choke me up with your smoke, Strip me of any clothes, And leave me with my foes. I have become man-made, Who serves you like a maid. Unnatural and impure, A disease with no cure. Do you know how I feel? See the scars I conceal? I lost my rights and voice You leave me with no choice. I am shaped based on greed. In pain, I sob and bleed. I have been infected, Abused and neglected. Do you hear me crying? I am sick and dying. You are my therapy Love me and and set me free. My children, I love you. I hope you love me too. Your mother needs you now. Help me I'll show you how. Recycle and conserve, Heed the rights I deserve. Hear my weakening voice, Help me regain my poise. It seems that what you do Has more effect on you...